Abundance Challenge Diary by Ann

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video 28 - I am really much better at 'letting go and letting God'. Even when something 'bad' happens: this week I got some really sad and surprising news about a friend. Normally I would just think about how unfair it all is, but now I know that there is more going on than I am aware of, so I am more considered and don't tend to jump to conclusions.
Video 30 - decided to do this one next as, after what happened to my friend I felt it was important to focus on gratitude rather than the lack that I could perceive in my friend's situation. That is some progress.

MYBM videos 16-18 What's coming up here is that I don't need to be world famous: just well-known to the people that are relevant to me and that will be fine! Not everyone needs to know about what I do, only those who are my ideal clients.

[Erika Awakening]

Hey Ann,

Yeah just make sure that fear of fame is cleared. A lot of people don't want to be famous or even known because they are scared of being seen. It's true you don't need to be famous in order to be abundant. It's just important to make sure to clear the fears of being seen, known, and understood.

Glad to hear you are seeing the news about your friend in the bigger picture. I know when my mom was diagnosed with diabetes it definitely turned out to be a blessing because her lifestyle quickly became more conscious.

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Hey Ann,

Yeah just make sure that fear of fame is cleared. A lot of people don't want to be famous or even known because they are scared of being seen. It's true you don't need to be famous in order to be abundant. It's just important to make sure to clear the fears of being seen, known, and understood.

Glad to hear you are seeing the news about your friend in the bigger picture. I know when my mom was diagnosed with diabetes it definitely turned out to be a blessing because her lifestyle quickly became more conscious.

Yes, this is about a marriage that has broken down and I don't have all the information. A shock because they have got through some major challenges and near death experiences and seemed to be the stronger for it, but I know that things are not always what they seem.

As to the fame - I actually think I would now enjoy a degree of fame, so that is real progress!

Oh and I won again on the lottery this week - again a few pounds but it must be a few years since I won anything, so two wins in two weeks is a miracle! Gratitude always works wonders!

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A funny thing happened on Friday - a friend came over to watch the Euro 2012 England/Sweden match and England were 1-0 up. She asked me to manifest another goal for England and I said it would be more interesting to have Sweden score; five minutes later it was 1-1! She then told me I had to manifest an England goal, so I said 'Oh no, it would be more fun to manifest another goal for Sweden' and a couple of minutes later they led 2-1. She was not pleased! I told her it was easier to manifest goals for Sweden as I had no emotional attachment to them. Anyway I said I'd stop and I was sure England would be ok and they ended up winning 3-2. Coincidence? My friend didn't think so.

Today did video 2 of the AC about the economy as it seems almost impossible to not come across all the worry about the situation in Greece. I felt I needed to do it more to keep away the negative vibes coming from everyone as opposed to how I feel as I am not worrying about it.

Felt video 3 on scarcity fitted in well with what is going on in the world at the moment. I was walking my brother's dog this morning and, there was an abundance of blue sky and sunshine; a good reminder that god works on the basis of abundance!

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Video 4 - My dad was always regarded as lucky: he usually won at cards, or bingo and even betting on horses. He died a few months before our lottery started and I always said I wish I knew the numbers he would have chosen! Mind you he won small amounts, maybe because he didn't think more was possible.
I feel that my two lottery wins are there to show me I can do it more than once, which had restricted me. Now I just need to up the amounts.

Video 5 - I was taught that it is better to give than to receive - of course if everyone gives and no one receives, that just won't work, so receiving is just as important. I've been practising receiving graciously, whether it be a compliment or something more tangible, and am definitely more comfortable with it now.

MYBM videos 19-21. Ironically I have written two 'chick lit' novels. I got good feedback from agents but no one signed me up and now I want to put them on Amazon Kindle and I know what is holding me back; you need to get a cover done! A friend of mine did a painting a few years back that would be ideal for one of them so I will contact her and see if she would consider letting me use it. My sales funnel does need some work and, I love speaking so will tap on 21 regularly as it is the opportunities that would be welcome.

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Yesterday I felt really out of sorts and then I got news that, although one of my candidates (for a job in the recruitment work I do part time), was the preferred person for the role, they have shelved the job as their reorganisation has been put on hold. He is furious as he turned down another job because he really wanted this one and now has no job. It means that I have earned no money as I am paid entirely on commission.

I actually didn't get upset or plunge into fear and worry about money. I did wonder if the universe is telling me to stop doing a job that I don't really have any great love for. OK so it may be easy to do when I am looking after my mum, but I am not always happy about the way that the person who runs the company tends to be a bit economical with the truth sometimes and is really quite a 'salesy' kind of person in the traditional sense.

Time to get tapping I think!

So video 6 is very appropriate: a surprise windfall would be just perfect at the moment and I will go with the flow and forget about the 'how' just trust and believe that something is going to happen.
Video 7 - it's too good to be true. I think I am overcoming that belief. Why should good things not happen to me? Actually they do all the time, I just tend to take them for granted like most people!

Also good to do MYBM videos 1-3 as that is perfect timing!

[Erika Awakening]

Yeah, I'll go back to the intuition I've shared with you a few times, Ann. I think the Universe wants you to face all this directly and not be hiding out behind working for someone else and taking care of someone else. The fear of asking for what you are really worth, directly, for your own business, doesn't get fully cleared until you start asking for money directly. My "no sales calls" approach just means that you don't have to do it over the phone. You can do it whatever way fits your style. Still need to do it, at least until abundance becomes so natural to you that it rolls in without asking. Windfalls are wonderful, but in your situation I think the Universe wants you to get comfortable doing business directly. That's my intuition, which you are free to heed or not. It hasn't changed since I shared it with you a couple months ago.

I do agree that if you're not passionate about it, it's not your dharma, and I would recommend moving away from anything you don't truly believe in.

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Thanks Erika, I think I have been doing what I believe other people 'expect' me to do. My family are very traditional in terms of how they think people should make money and I have been trying to fit myself into that role, but I have never been like that and am fed up with doing stuff so that people around me feel safe. The universe is giving me a big kick up the bum to do what I am meant to do, and thanks for the reminder!

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I've had a friend staying which has rather interrupted my tapping, but I'm back today.

Did video 8 and yes, I am probably feeling frustrated at all the time I put into getting this role filled and then the job gets pulled and I earn nothing.
What came up in video 9 is that, I have such a big family, I would need over 20 million to be able to give everyone what I would call a decent sum of money, as well as the fact that I don't want my extended family to think I am being mean if I had money and didn't give them as much as they would like (wow - Ego is really rummaging around in my mind this morning!)

MYBM Video 4: I got an attack of hiccups during this so wonder what that means?
Video 5 and 6: I am having major resistance to doing anything today and so tapping has been a challenge, which is weird as that has never happened before.

Ooh everything is going crazy: after the news about my friend's marriage, my cousin's fiance has walked out on her 8 weeks before their wedding and he was the one that wanted to get married and insisted on a big wedding. Then another friend texted to say she is having her horse put down and, as to the move; there is turmoil on the dates with the Estate Agent telling me everyone had agreed on 12th July regarding my mum's house - which was news to me especially when he told me I had insisted it took place that week, when I had suggested w/c 2nd July. So lots of stuff happening and I know this is the 'breakdown before the breakthrough' but I'm feeling exhausted. I'd forgotten what it was like to move house!

[Erika Awakening]

When you're up for it, I would suggest a one-on-one session, Ann, for getting to the bottom of some of these more complex patterns (like the wanting to take care of everyone else and the straight up asking for money). Videos are wonderful tools, and as I say often, they are not a replacement for personal coaching.

I've got a great offer right now to get Crown Chakra Challenge at the introductory price of $797 and an intro session for just $597 more.