Abundance Challenge Diary by Ann

[Annbros]

Today AC videos 22 and 23: I am loving the idea that, the more money I have the more I can help the environment through what I am able to purchase. Wonderful and I do eat good food, not mass produced rubbish. I love to cook from scratch and make nice meals which I freeze (I'll have a big freezer in the new house which is even better!). Of course I am still de-cluttering and going through my mum's stuff again and again to send more stuff to charity! My brothers keep putting stuff aside that I just don't see the point in keeping (an old dictionary and a road atlas I bought for my Dad a few months before he died). I am not really very sentimental about that kind of stuff!

13,14 and 15 of MYBM too today with no problems loading. While waiting I also read a post Erika participated in about Faith - I love the way you explain your belief in God Erika, without taking offence. Brilliant piece of writing.

[Erika Awakening]

Thanks Ann. I hope you will take advantage of the Crown Chakra and 1:1 session offer. This one's for you.

[Annbros]

AC 24 and 25 this morning. I wonder why people expect things to happen in a linear way when, in fact, looking back on my life, it most certainly doesn't!

I had another 'win' on the lottery so that's the third one in the last month. I only ever play when there is a rollover, so my luck is certainly improving!

Last night I purchased the Crown Chakra challenge: this was a huge leap of faith, so I thank Erika, Dianne and Elaine for all inspiring me to go for it. Another piece of work hasn't come through, so things are certainly challenging at the moment and I need to sort my block around receiving money directly. I am looking forward to setting up my one to one session with Erika. I'll start a new thread for the Crown Chakra.

[Erika Awakening]

Congrats on the leap of faith, Ann. Yes, the receiving money directly for your gifts to the world is the piece we need to get cleared. You're doing fine receiving it in lotteries and houses

Looking forward to hearing your experiences with Crown Chakra Opening.

[Dianne Dougherty]

Yay Ann!!!! Believe me you will reap the rewards of working 1:1 with Erika.........blocks be gone!!! Keep us posted!!!

[Annbros]

Thank you Dianne!

Ok videos 26 and 27 today and what came up is that, if I can manifest all this money that makes me so powerful, which is scary because lots of powerful people are horrible (think Mugabe and other dictators who seem to go crazy with power). I don't want to become like them! Hmmm wonder where that fear comes from?

[Erika Awakening]

Thank you Dianne!

Ok videos 26 and 27 today and what came up is that, if I can manifest all this money that makes me so powerful, which is scary because lots of powerful people are horrible (think Mugabe and other dictators who seem to go crazy with power). I don't want to become like them! Hmmm wonder where that fear comes from?

Yeah Ann this was one of my intuitions, it just seems like you are scared of being powerful or responsible.

What came up for you in the Power Shadow video of PPC?

[Annbros]

Erika, I couldn't remember, so tapped Power Shadow again.

What came up is that power corrupts, people won't like me, just as they don't like political leaders, bankers, in fact anyone who is successful, because they are no longer 'one of us' and don't understand how hard life is for people who don't have loads of money. I may lose my friends because I won't fit in with them anymore and people will be jealous of me, my money and my success and may want to threaten me or cause me harm.

Also that 'people like us' aren't supposed to be successful and powerful as that is big-headed and we are supposed to be humble and make sacrifices for others, not focus on ourselves. Yikes!

I'm definitely going to do PPC over again!

Also I think it is about power, not responsibility as I was happy to take care of my students, knowing that, due to their life-threatening conditions, I could cause their death if I got something wrong or didn't do something quickly enough. That never bothered me as I was always certain that I could cope with anything such as choking (which I did have to deal with) and faulty equipment. So it is the power aspect where I am most challenged.

[Erika Awakening]

Okay good. I would also do a lot of tapping on the belief that you have to be "liked." There is actually tremendous freedom in letting that one go, and being okay with people not liking you. You've seen the haters attacking me. That's really only a problem if I let it be a problem. I'd rather have haters than be living a fraction of the life I could be living. Just remember they are hating out of their own self-hatred, and unless a critical mass of us step out of that "group think" mentality and embrace our own power, the haters are probably never going to get healed. So you are actually helping them by doing what they don't like, paradoxically. Does that resonate with you?

[Annbros]

Okay good. I would also do a lot of tapping on the belief that you have to be "liked." There is actually tremendous freedom in letting that one go, and being okay with people not liking you. You've seen the haters attacking me. That's really only a problem if I let it be a problem. I'd rather have haters than be living a fraction of the life I could be living. Just remember they are hating out of their own self-hatred, and unless a critical mass of us step out of that "group think" mentality and embrace our own power, the haters are probably never going to get healed. So you are actually helping them by doing what they don't like, paradoxically. Does that resonate with you?

Yes, that does. I would say I am not so much concerned about people liking me on one hand, or verbal attacks, it seems to be more about physical attacks, yet I've never had any experience of being threatened or attacked even when I lived in a rough area, as I always walked around confidently. I will keep tapping to see if anything else comes up around this. Thanks Erika and yes, I love the way that you stand up for yourself when people attack your posts on FB. I sometimes feel that I am not quick enough with a good comeback when it is a verbal attack I am receiving (e.g. last Monday when the estate agent was giving me grief) and I get frustrated with myself for not having something to say to them to shut them up!